Bitter Sweet
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Well, its the first day of school. How's that for suspense?? My kids were so excited I didn't even have to wake them up this morning. They were up with their beds made and already dressed before breakfast. The morning actually went rather smoothly. Doug skipped out his morning grand rounds and went into work a little later to help send the kids off. We made pancakes and boy did they scarf them down! Kind of interesting since both of them claimed they had stomach aches before bed last night. I know it was their nerves and not the other. Remember getting those butterflies before starting a new year?
Luke too was excited and had his backpack in tow while taking the older ones to school. I dropped them off since they didn't want me to walk them to class. I respected their wishes because they said adamently, "mom I know where to go." Right after dropping them off, Luke assumed it was his turn to go.
It was definitely bitter sweet for me. On one hand Luke is such a difficult child and is very trying for me at times. But times like this I miss him so much and wish that he could remain with me. Weird I know, but that is how I felt. I guess that is part of being a mother and loving your children unconditionally. Once Luke was at school it was just me and Weston. Again, bitter sweet. The house was now silent, empty and no voices of fighting or complaints of being bored. Funny how you miss stuff like that when its not around. I picked up the house, did some laundry and ventured out to the mall with Angie. I really wasn't planning on buying anything but the dumb Gap sucked me in to their polo shirt sale for boys! And since there really isn't all too much to buy for boys like girls. I bought some shirts and church pants for Jared. I knew I should of not set foot in there!
I picked him up and asked him how his day went. He still was very quiet about it, but acted like he liked it (at least he was willing to go again). I guess I will get a better feel of it on Wednesday.
My older kids got home around 3pm. They got off the bus and ran with speed to the house due to the heat from the "hot" bus. I was reminded that they needed water bottles. In which I promised not to forget this important object tomorrow!
100 degree weather= hot bus ride!
Jared has soccer at 6:30pm and I am happy to say Doug will be around to take him. It's so nice to have a rotation at work where he is able to help take the kids to their activities and not have to drag the rest of the crew. Thats all for now since it took FOREVER for these dang pictures to upload on blogger today. Anyone else having troubles?
Luke too was excited and had his backpack in tow while taking the older ones to school. I dropped them off since they didn't want me to walk them to class. I respected their wishes because they said adamently, "mom I know where to go." Right after dropping them off, Luke assumed it was his turn to go.
I had to explain to him that he wasn't going to his school until 9am. Needless to say, it was a bit difficult for him to comprehend that fact. I decided it would be easiest to take him after my morning walk since it was on my way home. Once we got to his school he became a bit more timid and asked if I was going to stay with him. I said no, but I would pick him up after lunch. He proceeded cautiously into school with his head down. It made me so sad to see him like this. I put his backpack in the cubby and he really didn't say much. He was constantly rubbing his eyes, but tears never came out. I asked him if he was okay and he said yes very shyly. I assured him that I would be back to pick him up and away I went. I walked away feeling so sad and guilty inside. All I could think was will he be okay? I can only imagine the thoughts running through his little mind, a strange place, new faces and mom gone.
Isn't this the saddest face?
Isn't this the saddest face?
It was definitely bitter sweet for me. On one hand Luke is such a difficult child and is very trying for me at times. But times like this I miss him so much and wish that he could remain with me. Weird I know, but that is how I felt. I guess that is part of being a mother and loving your children unconditionally. Once Luke was at school it was just me and Weston. Again, bitter sweet. The house was now silent, empty and no voices of fighting or complaints of being bored. Funny how you miss stuff like that when its not around. I picked up the house, did some laundry and ventured out to the mall with Angie. I really wasn't planning on buying anything but the dumb Gap sucked me in to their polo shirt sale for boys! And since there really isn't all too much to buy for boys like girls. I bought some shirts and church pants for Jared. I knew I should of not set foot in there!
I picked him up and asked him how his day went. He still was very quiet about it, but acted like he liked it (at least he was willing to go again). I guess I will get a better feel of it on Wednesday.
My older kids got home around 3pm. They got off the bus and ran with speed to the house due to the heat from the "hot" bus. I was reminded that they needed water bottles. In which I promised not to forget this important object tomorrow!
100 degree weather= hot bus ride!
You know how much I love pink and brown!
I went and got the mail and these two "great pieces" showed up. It was a very thoughtful letter from Liz along with a great conference talk to cheer me up. I am so excited to read it. Along with that I got some hand delivered scrapbooking stuff from Angie! Is that suppose to be my motivator? Probably, since her card read "thought you could use this on Mon, and Wed. when the house was a bit more quiet." Okay, now I really have to get going on my good mail. I have been thinking about it and now need to act upon it. Thanks so much to both of you! Very thoughtful indeed and hit the spot.Jared has soccer at 6:30pm and I am happy to say Doug will be around to take him. It's so nice to have a rotation at work where he is able to help take the kids to their activities and not have to drag the rest of the crew. Thats all for now since it took FOREVER for these dang pictures to upload on blogger today. Anyone else having troubles?
